he hides her in him, covers her body with his stare
every pulsing beat of her heart, calls him unto her, beckons him into her presence
nothing in or of this world could explain to him her soul, the depth of her desire for him
wanting each breath of life to be consumed by him, for his obsession to breed
his hands, lips, eyes tenderly caress her ache, her constant ache for love
unlike any she has ever known, his eyes harness truth, pain, and glimmers of hope
© LR 2012
when faith led her to forgotten despair
she declined to succumb
her will to walk through open doors
nudged her to quicken her pace
a slow death
fast forwarded to new life
a rebirth of heart, love, and desire
for more
© LRS 2012
audio clip of —> Our First Dance
Skin smelling of orange honey blossom
A light glisten of dew
Silky locks drape my shoulders
Melon scented gloss smoothes over puckered lips
Three inch spiked heels
Snuggly embrace these delicate toes
Freshly painted crimson red
I fill the seams of my favorite black dress
Taunt breasts peek slightly
Hoping to capture a glance
I walk into Shade
The blues band plays tonight
Luring me to the dance floor
Sitting at the dimly lit bar
Ordering a glass of Cabernet
Leaving my imprint along the rim
A light tap upon my shoulder
My body shudders
“Is this him?”
One last sip
Red flows pass my tongue
Down my throat
Warms my chest
Excites my flesh
Turning to take his hand
I look up, into his eyes
All I’ve held within
All I’ve desired
All I’ve struggled to imagine
In his eyes
In the touch of his hand
I feel truth
I know love
For tonight,
The risk in a naughty smile
Grabs me by the waist
Into his arms
Our bodies sway to romantic rhythms
The strength of his hands on my back
Promises a night of sweaty passion
The closeness,
In which he pulls my body into his
Feeling his pulse pressed against my thighs
Promises protection, safety
Allowing me to be vulnerable with him
The tears in his darkened eyes
Honored to share our first dance
Promises real love, true love
For all eternity
Without a single spoken word
Our eyes lock, gripping all attention
Our hearts race, love reaches climax
Our lips part, slowly we ease towards passion
To finally cease the intense longing
Insatiable cravings
Aching desire
To feel and fill one another
Quivering lips meet
His tongue; soft, warm
Breath smelling of Scotch,
Tenderly heats my mouth
Ravenous for his kiss
I feast
Sucking, kissing, licking his mouth, lips, tongue
We never break
Not even for a breath
Finally clutched in love
This dance is where life begins
And ends
© LRS 2011
Drain my blood
Onto your hands
Touch me
As softly as you speak
Take my body into your arms
Handle me with care
I cannot abide this aching desire
Yearning to be filled with you
Drown me in you
Never pull away
My stomach roars with infatuation
Constant gnawing
Your love throbs deep within
Cold without you
Make me warm
Love me well
Call me yours
© LRS 2011
My hips lure your stare,
Excite you.
Step away from time,
Dance with me.
In your eyes I see desire
For me to hold your hands in mine
Whisper my fantasies into your ear
Press against your flesh.
In our stare the music fades
Everyone else disappears
Time stops.
You are here with me,
Me alone.
The beats continue to flow
Through our existence
Together our passion heats the room.
Run your hands through my locks
Gently wrap me around your body.
Melt into my eyes
I’ll never look away.
© LRS 2011
Locked up
behind doors in my mind.
Mountains of thoughts
built up over time
waiting patiently
to be climbed,
overcome,
to crumble with confidence.
In favor of my heart
I tightly close my eyes
refuse to see anything
other than love.
Like stones loosening at the base
my emotions drift off
break free from their foundation
become their own.
I’ve been given a second chance
a rare opportunity to connect
never contemplating the risks
I free fall from
the highest point of my thoughts
and wait to be caught.
Soaring above my body
looking over all aspects of life
I find true love.
Slowly
I may be ready to open the doors
one
easy turn of the knob
at a time.
© LRS 2011
Nothing more satisfying
Than his touch
I tingle in anticipation.
To feel him
Wrapped all around me
Means one more day of life.
Breathing him into my lungs
Trapped beneath my breasts
Where I shall secure him forever.
© LRS 2011
Bits and pieces of you float around me
With each blink I attempt to wrap you within my mind
Dancing in the wind, you flirt
Pluck my curls from beneath my ear
Leave sweet kisses atop my lashes
Gently, eagerly; land on my chest
When I reach for you, you weave through my fingertips
One after the other you gather on my cheeks
I press you into my skin; allow my flesh to absorb your energy
Deep in thought you step into my mind
Capture me from those in my presence
Keep me for yourself
Release into me
Together we are home
© LRS 2011
What do I want?
What do I imagine?
Horror plagues your face
As the answers spill
From these troubled lips
So pure?
So righteous?
Allow me to introduce myself
Sick in depth
Beyond repair
A one way ticket to hell
Not sure I want to make the trip back
Another plight into lust
Snatched up without a fight
I practically begged
You wish
To be in my presence
Bathe in my light
Yet, I’m sure
Disappointment is all I’ll cause
Touch with one finger
Then retract into your fantasy
I won’t taste sweet
I won’t smell of love
I’ll sag and sway and disgust you away
Please stop
Turn around
Run deep into her arms
Where you belong
Remember me no more
After all
I am meant for another
One stroke at a time
I free you
From my grip
© LRS 2011
Tick
Tock,
I wait.
Linger around
Hold onto your words
Marinate in your love.
Tick
Tock,
I smile.
Kiss your neck
Study your nature
Fancy my self with thoughts.
Tick
Tock,
I act.
Play the role
Fulfill your desires
Welcome you to my world.
Tick
Tock,
I dream.
Without hesitation
The tingle of feverish passion
Overtakes my night.
Tick
Tock,
I wait.
© LRS 2011
Lost, abandoned by selfish family
She saw him
Thick curls warmed his neck
Brown framed his face
A tall, thin, hardened boy
The pain of seclusion leaked from his heavy eyes
When he said I love you
Her heart filled with acceptance
When she felt his puckered lips
Pressed against her natural breasts
She filled with warm, rich pleasure
The sweet sensation of his gentle touch
Deep within
Hurt her courageous bones with joy
She didn’t want to part from him
She wouldn’t ever give him the chance to forget her
Stay around
Stay with me
Her heart constricted with pure agony
With each passing city
The distance between their souls
Grew more and more
She felt his love slipping right through her wet fingertips
She never intended to leave
She lay there, aloof
Staring at his masculine image
Pretending they were still together
Tormented by fate
A master at running away
She bid adieu
Their love will pullulate forever
© LRS 2011
Loving you comes so easy
So sweet
So thoughtful
So gentle
Move towards me
So slowly
Let me
Ease your stress
Don’t miss me
Stay here
With me
Never leave my heart
I’ve listened to you
Everyday
Still my feelings
They’re hard to convey
Give me what I deserve
I’ll never allow anything less
Did you hear what I said?
Do you still love me?
Walk along the beach
Call out to me
I shall hear you over the seas
Love you
All I do…
Love you
All I see…
Love you
Whatever it takes
I know you’ll pull through
I now believe
You love me too
© LRS 2011
I write,
Even though I know
No one is reading,
Because it’s healing…
For me.
If any reason
Is good enough,
I am.
Alone
Braless
Vulnerable,
Loving my self
More than I loved you.
Patient
Capable
Willing,
Desperately necessary
Handle with care.
In one instance
We tainted everything
For better or worse?
I’m not sure.
Do I wish
To go back in time
Take back that moment?
Sometimes…
Mostly.
Slowly,
I am opening my heart
Yet again, to you,
Although you still
Remain nameless
In my phone book.
This time
You’ll need to
Earn
Your spot.
Knowing you may
Glance my way
Encourages me to
Strive,
Work harder
Be smarter
Aim higher.
Perhaps my sparkle
Will capture your heart
Once and for all.
Finally at peace
I see what you see,
I no longer require
Your validation to thrive.
I am
And forever shall be
Wonderfully made.
Now, I wait for sleep
To overtake my mind
My body,
Where hopefully
My dreams
Will be less disappointing than
My reality.
© LRS 2011
I knock on the door
“Come in,” I hear said,
I walk into your house
See you laying in bed.
“Hi,” I whisper
“Hello,” you return,
“Come here,” you request
Oh how I want, oh how I yearn.
Here, I lay in your arms
Allowing your warmth to become my own,
You wink at me, a smile escapes
When I am with you I never feel alone.
As I snuggle my face
Deep into your chest,
Your sweetness smothers
Becomes my breath.
Feeling this moment
As if it were true,
I close my eyes
Find my self in you.
Hold me close
So close, so tight,
Here, laying together
We watch day become night.
I must never fall asleep
Or lose the feel of your touch,
For when I wake in the morning
All that remains will be dust.
For now I’ll stay here
Laying next to you in bed,
If I can’t have you with me
We’ll be together in my head.
© LRS 2011
The unpredictability of you
scares me, pushes me away
But,
that’s what you wanted
am I wrong?
Haven’t you worked this hard
to make me disappear
get lost in you
tear my soul from its core,
wasn’t that your plan?
Am I now to be concerned
forgive, move on
love as before
pretend you aren’t who you are
yet again, give you all of me?
I certainly know
the liar in you
is more worthy than your apologies
and the manipulation of your words
is more dependable than your actions.
So I’m in your head
your thoughts are wrapped around me
you miss me
you’re sorry for how you’ve behaved
you’re seeking help.
Which is truth, which is farce
I have no desire to determine either
I want only to be forgotten
I want out of this equation of
evil, toxic, poisonous love.
You have not a clue of what
the word love really means
or requires. Mine is to be
earned, not toyed with
I have no more time for your issues.
I am claimed to be known
yet the woman you believe I am
is your own fantasy, I am not her
you know no more of me
than what is known of yourself.
Cut from the same cloth
yet one is
alive in truth
and the other,
dead in spirit.
I mourn the loss of what
I wish we had, what lived in my dreams.
The reality of you
I have only one word to describe
Disillusioned.
© LRS 2011
Dreaming of a romance
A soft, inviting embrace that
Doesn’t turn cold.
A glance
Becomes a timeless stare,
Never breaking my trust
Never causing my heart to ache.
A warm passion
So great
I cannot bear to live without it.
Our bond is more than love making
Our adore is stronger than disagreements.
Mutual respect is never a question
Unconditional love is absolute.
I feel the tenderness of
Our souls uniting
The angst
In the brush of my breasts.
I do not pull away
Nor do I dare allow
Our eyes to ever part.
Silent words exchanged through lips
Warm and moist
We meet.
The tingling joy of bare chests greeting
Lights my fire with uncontrollable urges.
© LRS 2011
Mixed up in a world that agrees with nothing I believe.
-
A faceless man with hard breath
Sour and angry
Moves towards me.
-
Mixed up in a world where strangers are closer than family.
-
Shifting one leg over the other
I pull him close to me
Wanting all he has to offer.
-
Mixed up in a world that glorifies instant gratification.
-
My desires
Stronger than my mind
Overwhelms our physical unification.
-
Mixed up in a world that preys on innocent love.
-
He reaches into my mouth
Goes straight for my heart; grips fiercely,
Yanking it from my chest.
-
Mixed up in a world where fighting prevails.
-
Entranced by his allure
I never say stop
I never once even moan in pain.
-
Mixed up in a world filled with beautiful struggle.
-
I allow him to steal my heart from its safe casing
I watch him steal every ounce of my self
Left feeling used, penniless, cheap.
-
Mixed up in a world, having only myself to blame.
-
© LRS 2011
Skilled
At what you do
Years in production
Practice doesn’t make perfect
You are a natural.
Little of your effort
It takes
To master this art.
Not much forethought
Goes into preparation
A true talent
That has become you.
-
Dark eyes
An honest smile
Young and overlooked
Who was your first?
Did they see you?
Were your skills valued?
Perhaps they were
Too self-absorbed
Too ignorant
To cherish your special gift.
-
I realized
Rather quickly
You chose me
To receive your truth
I never had a chance.
To escape your passion
Meant
Turning my back
On myself
Something you knew
I would never do.
-
You held on tight
Called out to me
Knowing I was listening
Waiting for your world
To become
My own.
When you reached
For my hand
There was no going back.
I agreed
To take that trip
With you
Promised
It wasn’t fantasy
I knew the reality.
You undressed me
With your words
You borrowed my spirit
Made all the right plays.
Outside of myself
I watched you
You led the orchestra
Of my heart
Into a symphony
Of cohesive harmonies.
-
Accepting this you
Is foolish of me
I know your art
Will always be
Your first love.
A willing victim
Living in your castle
I believe you
Killing myself
One word at a time.
I sacrifice
For the better of you
Someday you’ll see
I gave you strength
It was me
Who empowered you
I’ll take your shame
Discharge your guilt
Onto my shoulders.
Continue to build
Your character of talent
Fine tune your masterpiece
Together we’ll live
In your vision
Me
An enthusiast
You
A beautiful liar.
-
© LRS 2011
Woke up this morning
Sat down to write,
Never intended
To take part in this fight.
-
My heart full of noise
My mind blank,
Nothing to say
Dreaming awake.
-
Void of inspiration
No love story to tell,
Caught off guard
I slipped and fell.
-
Growing in spurts
One day at a time,
Taking care of myself
“Everything will be fine.”
-
Motivated by loved ones
To do my best,
I’ll stand on solid ground
Let God handle the rest.
-
Realizing my potential
With each temptation I resist,
In a moment of weakness
I found all I had missed.
-
Alone? Not now
Never shall I be,
Given another chance
My love won’t be free.
-
Counting the days
Until I feel alive again,
Focused and driven
In the end, I will win.
-
© LRS 2011
Blue and green kisses
Lather my flesh
Plump, soft breasts
Smooth against my hands.
My tongue ever-so lightly
Flirts with my lips
The red has never been so red
The pleasure, never so rich.
Long, white whiskers
Tickle my arm
Passionate thoughts dance
In my head.
So in love
So alive with love
I smile
And kiss back.
Is this me
Is it real
Is this the life I live
Am I merely telling a story.
Not much more can live
Without belief
More, give me more
A lot more.
I sigh and gently giggle
The red deepens
Wet and moist
My soft lips are pouted.
Wanting
Forever wanting
Pressed by desire
Longing for his touch.
© LRS 2007
