Tick
Tock,
I wait.
Linger around
Hold onto your words
Marinate in your love.
Tick
Tock,
I smile.
Kiss your neck
Study your nature
Fancy my self with thoughts.
Tick
Tock,
I act.
Play the role
Fulfill your desires
Welcome you to my world.
Tick
Tock,
I dream.
Without hesitation
The tingle of feverish passion
Overtakes my night.
Tick
Tock,
I wait.
© LRS 2011
Living in my dreams
a more comfortable reality as of late
I reunited with my relatives.
All of them
taller, larger than I
stood over me with
protection and care.
As I hugged each one
I felt…
at home.
I reconnected with
my childhood
the loving relationships
I so deeply missed.
Tears fell into
puddles at our bare feet
whilst we embraced
spirits flowed freely from
one body into the next
sharing our souls with
peace and ease.
I climbed into their arms
we exchanged blinding
apologies and well-wishes
nothing was comforting
all was overwhelming.
Each tear
tore into the earth with
vengeance
guilt
regret.
The warmth of their bodies
told me the truth.
I awoke feeling calm
yet uneasy and
still empty.
Oh peaceful sleep,
why have you left me…
© LRS 2011
Dreaming of a romance
A soft, inviting embrace that
Doesn’t turn cold.
A glance
Becomes a timeless stare,
Never breaking my trust
Never causing my heart to ache.
A warm passion
So great
I cannot bear to live without it.
Our bond is more than love making
Our adore is stronger than disagreements.
Mutual respect is never a question
Unconditional love is absolute.
I feel the tenderness of
Our souls uniting
The angst
In the brush of my breasts.
I do not pull away
Nor do I dare allow
Our eyes to ever part.
Silent words exchanged through lips
Warm and moist
We meet.
The tingling joy of bare chests greeting
Lights my fire with uncontrollable urges.
© LRS 2011
Woke up this morning
Sat down to write,
Never intended
To take part in this fight.
-
My heart full of noise
My mind blank,
Nothing to say
Dreaming awake.
-
Void of inspiration
No love story to tell,
Caught off guard
I slipped and fell.
-
Growing in spurts
One day at a time,
Taking care of myself
“Everything will be fine.”
-
Motivated by loved ones
To do my best,
I’ll stand on solid ground
Let God handle the rest.
-
Realizing my potential
With each temptation I resist,
In a moment of weakness
I found all I had missed.
-
Alone? Not now
Never shall I be,
Given another chance
My love won’t be free.
-
Counting the days
Until I feel alive again,
Focused and driven
In the end, I will win.
-
© LRS 2011
Lost
in my desire for pain
I am searching
for greatness
Dreaming of the day
when my flesh
will be calm
Aching
for all the right reasons.
Always pointing
her finger at me
I try to smile
Eyes bright
full of darkness.
Peace
Love
Joy
Why do I strike you
Am I so unworthy?
I have mashed my feelings
down so deep
I can’t even
remember their scent
Losing more
and more
with each exhale
I await the life
I should be living.
Father, please
forgive me
my ungrateful heart
Search my soul
O Lord,
make me new
in You
Whole
alive in spirit
and truth
Learning with every blink.
I long to know you
Trapped in this body
Constantly pushed away
by my own thoughts
I ought to kill this all
serve you, only.
Ripped from his arms
I am ready to let go
on my own
I am not holding on
Hoping to live another day
attempt life once more.
Cracking warmth
chills my spirit
My mind
is open to receive
lazy
Motivated
selfish
Determined…
To love my self
Too many emotions
to sort through.
It is never too late
for true regret
Blindly existing
pretending to feel
Will I be healed?
I can’t allow
this to end
I have yet
to even begin.
I see her
I can see her
there she is
Tears
graze my cheeks
I see me.
© LRS 2008
