At the core of all that is important
Within the truest of souls and most promising hearts
Beneath heavy burdens
Shining brighter than any other force
An energy more pure and honest than any other
The most needed emotion to be felt
Love.
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The passage about Walking in the Light has me prayerfully asking God to continue saturating me in His light, ever removing my heart from living in blind darkness. The passage on Loving One Another further instills my belief of my natural ability to love and my strong desire to love as Christ loves.
Sometimes, I get caught up in this world and it wears on my spirit, but studying readings like this reminds me that I am not of this world and the one who is in me is greater than the one who is in the world (1 John 4:4). Despite my many struggles, fears, heartache and weaknesses, God continues to remind me that He is here, with me, ready to carry my burdens as I allow. He loves me, regardless of my sins, and wants to breathe new life in me through His Son. I’m not afraid because, there is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear (1 John4:18).
© LR 2012
A thwarting tale of fantasy exchanged for reality;
void of emotion, pure animalistic desire rains over every engrossed thought.
He’ll never satisfy as well or love so feverishly;
for you, my true muse, are my soulmate, my last breath of thirst.
© LR 2012
At times like tonight, when I miss you so very much and my heart aches without you, I write and hope you’re out there, somewhere, reading my thoughts.
No matter how logically I can see that we weren’t meant to be, I still want you in my life.
I’m so in love, and so blind, and all I want is for you to love me too.
Tears stream from my eyes tonight; I need you here to comfort me.
Yesterday was a rough day and I want you to hold me, kiss me, tell me we’ll get through this together.
Why did you leave? Yet I’m so grateful you did; I hate that I see the positive in this change.
I want you back, that’s the truth, but I could never allow it, and that breaks my heart all over again.
I earnestly pray away my love for you, asking God to fulfill me in more satisfying ways.
Come to me in my dreams, release me from loving you.
Be kind, compassionate, and tender, and allow me to run towards what’s best for me.
Don’t be angry, or judgmental, or rude, just love me like I once loved you.
© LR 2012
Oh sweet love, how you cover me in shades of delight,
you triumph the masquerade of doubt.
My time with you sweetens the kiss of solitude,
the mindfulness of humility floods my heart with appreciation.
Waking to the peaceful wash of gratitude,
I radically accept your beauty, your gentle embrace of comfort.
Surrender with complete abandon to God’s care and protection,
lead your recovery with grace and forgiveness.
Opened to the reality of strength through adversity,
your eyes see growth, progress, and compassion.
Focused on others, the greatest reward in giving,
you are wholly present and alive, living in happiness.
Dear, sweet Laurice, filled with willingness, amazed by your unwavering decision to walk in faith,
you long to spend each moment loving and believing your worth to God.
This honest love, honor and self-respect,
you will be your sweetest friend, as will I.
*This poem was written to me, by me. I’m learning that when I’m alone, I’m really with myself, and I’m loving the quality time I’m spending with her 
© LR 2012
The flame that once burned
died with a single breath
Scraping the plaque from my heart
that fear left behind
Every memory confuses me more,
constantly distracted so not to remember
Tears stream sadness into my voice
cracking the definition of my existence
I am the love that God promised the world,
walking beauty into blind lives
Suffering not from heartache,
starved for the only One who can fulfill
Grave words haunt the night
and I sleep, yet again, with lies.
© LR 2012
Each note, thoughts misunderstood, a paragraph from life’s script where I no longer carry the leading role.
I trust, even through fear, I have faith that I will be okay, better than okay, someday happy.
Acting as if, gathering the tools needed to reap my harvest, listening, and hearing what I don’t want to hear.
A true gift, my sanity in the midst of chaos, all we are together, I love; I love and I love and I love.
Comforted by willingness, courage, and honesty; governed by strength, compassion, and forgiveness.
Pouring from our eyes, we gleam; experiences and future possibilities fuel our passion to heal, and be healed.
Ready, willing, and able, we walk forward, hand in hand; together we strive, together we grow, together we live.
© LR 2012
The soft melody of night comforts me,
delights me in the promise of tomorrow
and a new beginning.
The cold, chills beneath my flesh
worries my heart with the emptiness
that not having him by my side may bring.
Another gift I so callously brushed aside,
waiting for heartache to besiege me,
not allowing him a fair fight.
My apology, I pray, tethers to his soul,
breathes forgiveness into his lungs,
and offers me another day.
© LR 2012
A slow, unanswered breath escapes my lips
as he gently presses into me
The magnetic desires between us fills the room with heat,
a passion too great to match with words
An inch of ‘deeper into me I let you see’
floods our hearts with love as we begin to taste one another
His hands, powerful and unfamiliar,
caress my body with understanding, seeking to please
Overcome with sensation I moan, cry out in delight,
tightly hold his head
Eyes of wonder gaze at me,
inside my soul he sees
Connected now as One
our bodies ache to save each other
An act of pure love,
a gift given to me with no attachments
My pursuit simply ends,
I am home.
© LR 2012
Not much of a wish, or a desire,
truth be told, I’ve known all along
Going through the motions
until disappointment presents itself
Unable to sparkle, shine, or elate,
unwilling to mask the growing despair
One day I’ll find my prince
and he’ll readily accept my offer
The constant distance of love
will no longer rule my existence
© LR 2012
Waiting to be tenderly touched, like never before, anticipating his strong hands spreading across my aching body with passionate cravings.
Longing for his powerful kiss, for his sweet lips to meet my every curve, his soft tongue to twist ’round every bend.
I close my eyes and imagine his warm flesh pressed against mine, I feel his breath quicken with angst.
I hear him make love to me with rhythm and rhyme, he crawls into my amorous heart, loves me from the inside out.
Together, we smile in shades of jade, and dream of one another’s most valuable act of love.
© LR 2012
I am most loved, a treasured soul more precious than gems.
I am most beautiful, created perfectly in God’s own image.
I am most desired, a valuable keepsake worth every bit of life.
I am most accepted, seen for the truth carried within my heart.
A woman worth loving unconditionally, am I.
© LR 2012
the spacial existence between love and reality,
the further i push away
vulnerability is masked,
protection in isolation is how i maintain
ruled by fears and insecurity,
anticipating the next abandonment i’ll create
© LR 2012
The way in which he walked toward me,
his confidence overwhelmed the room.
“Your eyes,” he began, “they’re meant to conquer.”
Conquer?
“You have such power, strength, and dangerous passion. How often do you love?”
Often!
“It’s as if you’ve been holding this love, growing from your soul with arms reaching out into an empty world.”
Tell me more, I beckoned. I could listen to you forever.
“Forever? There’s that dangerous passion that pulled me towards you. You are aware of your hold on men.”
That was a statement.
“You are stunning. You’re pure ability to transform, captivate, and define… It’s, well, stimulating.”
Are you hitting on me? I’m new at this.
“Wise. You’re a wise woman. New? Not you. You’re an old soul determined to love. Lover of many. Heartbreaker. No?”
No.
“You established confidence in this room. It reminded me of the women I’ve never been good enough to keep.”
You’re a keeper, trust me.
“I like you. May I?”
Like away!
As I turned to return to my seat, he whispered,
“Farewell, beauty.”
*swoon*
Smiles shift and moods are no longer predictable
Afraid and hesitant, we hide in the shadows
Direct us, my lordship, guide our paths away from the cold darkness
Lead us into the warm light of your love
© LR 2012
All I once carried
within the walls of my chest
for those who were my world,
Vanished.
Finer than dust,
Diminished
into the breeze,
Swept away to never be felt again.
Learning to be whole,
Remembering where my broken pieces
were tossed to the side
leaving them to rest in peace.
© LR 2012
The imprint of life’s hues
Scribed across my chest,
Rip into my flesh with vengeance.
Becoming the unfulfilled
Woman seeking love,
A price set too rich for the weak.
Heavy panting from deceitful lips
Warns my soul to run,
Part from talent, skill, regrets.
Braver than most,
I sit drenched in tears
Acting as if.
The wheel spins
Round and round,
Maneuvering deep into my flesh.
Chance, by chance
My secret desire is known,
And the color of life is hidden in my blood.
© LR 2012
he hides her in him, covers her body with his stare
every pulsing beat of her heart, calls him unto her, beckons him into her presence
nothing in or of this world could explain to him her soul, the depth of her desire for him
wanting each breath of life to be consumed by him, for his obsession to breed
his hands, lips, eyes tenderly caress her ache, her constant ache for love
unlike any she has ever known, his eyes harness truth, pain, and glimmers of hope
© LR 2012
A memory of strength
slowly becomes my reality,
Days are manageable
nights are restful,
Remembering all I’ve overcome
inspires me to keep moving,
Stagnant air permeates deceit
growth is what I need to breathe,
Friendships, love, healing
appreciating the gift of life.
© LR 2012
Lonely days pass
making each breath
more
difficult than the last,
Nights filled
with sadness and
my deepest desire
to be touched,
A simple
text or call
gently
lifts my spirits,
Time spent
with you
comforts my
soul,
To hear
I love you,
To see
I care for you,
To feel
I want you,
To know
I trust you,
In our presence
I feel peace
sense, and
determination,
To
fight
seek, and
live,
Do you realize
how great of a
love
I have?
Are you aware
of the
fears
I battle?
Will you
promise to
love
wholly?
One
more
moment
please,
One
more
hug and
kiss,
Infinite
more
days and nights
spent with my love
© LR 2012
