Not much of a wish, or a desire,
truth be told, I’ve known all along
Going through the motions
until disappointment presents itself
Unable to sparkle, shine, or elate,
unwilling to mask the growing despair
One day I’ll find my prince
and he’ll readily accept my offer
The constant distance of love
will no longer rule my existence
© LR 2012
My heart dropped into my stomach
into the pit of my stomach
I felt rejected
“nothing new,”
I reminded myself.
I sat
weeping
replayed the events over in my mind
pondering
why was my reaction so sorrow ridden.
Still
I surrendered to the quiet
spoke with God
still
I pled for answers to the unknowns.
© LR 2012
empty
in this oversized casing
dragging this body
around corners
through doors
looking for happiness
with my own reflection
unable to identify
the true meaning of beauty
nor do i see beauty
amongst the sway of this flesh
breasts too small
skin too scarred
teeth too crooked
whoever finds beauty in this body
has yet to see it nude
free from editing
it is more than flawed
disappointing
disgusting
damaged
placing one foot
in front of the other
searching for comfort
with what i’ve been given
a body
i will
never
accept
© LRS 2011
