I sensed the judgment in their eyes,
Digging into my soul,
Attempting to know who I was.
The tone in which they spoke of me,
Claiming to know my truth.
I never before questioned their intentions,
Yet now I evaluated each relationship.
Did they speak of my tears,
Of the coldness my heart learned to call home,
Did ever they wonder why my life seemed so perfect,
What I may have been hiding beneath 320 pounds?
In denial I found comfort,
Familiarity,
Connection,
Eventually it led me to darkness.
As I stepped into the light,
My eyes were opened,
I wasn’t happy.
How masterfully I had fooled them,
Shocked them with the word divorce.
Nonetheless, I cried,
Alone,
Forgotten,
Betrayed,
And judged.
© LRB 2012
