Writing My Journey July 15, 2012

Fall away from grace and watch your world crumble, page by internal page.

A guide, who walked the path before, leads us towards truth.

The wicked gather to claim false histories, to fill our minds with empty promises.

Reach forward into unchartered emotions, know the beauty of surrendering to honesty.

A fate worth entertaining, striving to find our way, we join hands.

Miraculously, the pure at heart believe, thrive due to this knowledge, and never again live in fear.

We are few of many, kind of kinds, drifting by mercy away from the nature of sin.

I pause…
Breathe deeply…
And write.

© LR 2012

The Collective July 7, 2012

Each note, thoughts misunderstood, a paragraph from life’s script where I no longer carry the leading role.

I trust, even through fear, I have faith that I will be okay, better than okay, someday happy.

Acting as if, gathering the tools needed to reap my harvest, listening, and hearing what I don’t want to hear.

A true gift, my sanity in the midst of chaos, all we are together, I love; I love and I love and I love.

Comforted by willingness, courage, and honesty; governed by strength, compassion, and forgiveness.

Pouring from our eyes, we gleam; experiences and future possibilities fuel our passion to heal, and be healed.

Ready, willing, and able, we walk forward, hand in hand; together we strive, together we grow, together we live.

 

© LR 2012

A tale of Love June 13, 2012

He writes for me,
songs intended for royalty

Wrapped in my favorite shade of pink,
the gifts I’ve always wanted

A knock at my door,
he arrives, uninvited,
knowing my secret desire for his presence

Day and night,
after day and night,
he gently reminds my heart it’s okay to trust

He dances with me,
until the setting sun begs for us to rest

Pressing and pulling,
he sacrifices for the better of me

My prince of modern days,
rules my world with his,
which of course is me

© LR 2012

just another day March 12, 2012

the calming sounds of my cries, more familiar than those of my laughter,
this sadness, attached to my soul, sinks me deeper into the world,
heavy, daunting; i’m so scared for tomorrow.

 

a most common prayer these days,
Father, please, bring me home,
i’m tired, i’m finished, i’m ready.

 

so far from everything i’ve ever known,
i can’t remember what happiness feels like,
unable to even recognize it in others.

 

the shattering of my heart, with every beat,
seeps out of my eyes,
into a pool of guilt, anger, loneliness.

 

the heaviness of this sorrow is winning,
i surrender, i give in,
i’m not strong enough to carry on.

 

many years of hiding pain,
abandonment,
my inability to trust.

 

waves crash over my head; i can’t catch my breath,
deadening silence fuels my despair,
and all i dream about is sleeping… forever.

 

© LRS  March 12, 2012

 

Numb August 12, 2011

I realize you need me strong
Forever capable of running this race.
Not made of steel
I sometimes crumble,
It is then
I need your strength.
Yesterday,
You let us down
Lost your cool
Made a dangerous mistake.
My trust, now shattered
I gather the remaining pieces
Attempt to salvage our love.
On this empty space beside me
Lingers your scent
I smell you in my dreams.
Why did you let go?
Why do I hold on?
I’ll continue to wait
Just wish you wouldn’t take
So long.
Discover yourself…
Find me.

 

© LRS 2011

 

My Happy Corner July 28, 2011

Four white walls etched with traces of accidents.

 

The bright yellow sun
Its rays stretch out to meet me.

 

A heavy black box
Muffles beats
Soothes my ears.

 

Used
Heavy
A comfortable place to sit, reflect, express
Inspires me.

 

A thick tablet
Accepting, trustworthy, safe
On it I reveal all that is within
Day and night
Night and day.

 

© LRS 2011

 

Because Of You May 10, 2011

 

Because of you

I feel true regret

I mourn what could have been

Time has wasted yet again

Trust no longer exists

Guilt and shame rule

All because of you.

 

© LRS 2011

 

DayDreamer May 3, 2011

Dreaming of a romance
A soft, inviting embrace that
Doesn’t turn cold.

A glance
Becomes a timeless stare,
Never breaking my trust
Never causing my heart to ache.

A warm passion
So great
I cannot bear to live without it.

Our bond is more than love making
Our adore is stronger than disagreements.

Mutual respect is never a question
Unconditional love is absolute.

I feel the tenderness of
Our souls uniting
The angst
In the brush of my breasts.

I do not pull away
Nor do I dare allow
Our eyes to ever part.

Silent words exchanged through lips
Warm and moist
We meet.

The tingling joy of bare chests greeting
Lights my fire with uncontrollable urges.

 

© LRS 2011