Released
Ravenous
Brimming
Aghast
Sickened
Secluded
Faithful
Healed
Captivated
© LRS 2011
Hot Wax May 13, 2011
Drip
Drip
Drip
Onto my flesh
Into my veins
Within my heart
Drip
Drip
Drip
Down to my thighs
In between my legs
Make me feel so good
Drip
Drip
Drip
Intoxicated by your scent
Revitalized by your stare
Pleasured by your stroke
Stroke
Stroke
Stroke
Bodies pressed hard
Fingers gently caress
Lips passionately flirt
Drip
Drip
Drip
© LRS 2011
On Bowed Knees May 10, 2011
Doors upon doors open my chest
Guilt spills out covering their faces like masks.
They hide beneath terror
Afraid of righteousness
The fear of God paralyzes them.
Heightened burdens cloud my steps,
Inspire my actions.
Realized and provoked
Their teeth rip into my flesh with rage
Hungry for blood,
Thirsty for revenge.
Eat, sulk
Celebrate my demise.
Sins overshadow greatness
Anger arises, brighter than crisp white linen
Soft and with vigilant preparation.
Mercy seeps
My pores constrict with desire.
I withdraw nothing
I rule with skills of a Queen.
© LRS 2011
Because Of You
Because of you
I feel true regret
I mourn what could have been
Time has wasted yet again
Trust no longer exists
Guilt and shame rule
All because of you.
© LRS 2011
Beautiful Liar March 28, 2011
Skilled
At what you do
Years in production
Practice doesn’t make perfect
You are a natural.
Little of your effort
It takes
To master this art.
Not much forethought
Goes into preparation
A true talent
That has become you.
–
Dark eyes
An honest smile
Young and overlooked
Who was your first?
Did they see you?
Were your skills valued?
Perhaps they were
Too self-absorbed
Too ignorant
To cherish your special gift.
–
I realized
Rather quickly
You chose me
To receive your truth
I never had a chance.
To escape your passion
Meant
Turning my back
On myself
Something you knew
I would never do.
–
You held on tight
Called out to me
Knowing I was listening
Waiting for your world
To become
My own.
When you reached
For my hand
There was no going back.
I agreed
To take that trip
With you
Promised
It wasn’t fantasy
I knew the reality.
You undressed me
With your words
You borrowed my spirit
Made all the right plays.
Outside of myself
I watched you
You led the orchestra
Of my heart
Into a symphony
Of cohesive harmonies.
–
Accepting this you
Is foolish of me
I know your art
Will always be
Your first love.
A willing victim
Living in your castle
I believe you
Killing myself
One word at a time.
I sacrifice
For the better of you
Someday you’ll see
I gave you strength
It was me
Who empowered you
I’ll take your shame
Discharge your guilt
Onto my shoulders.
Continue to build
Your character of talent
Fine tune your masterpiece
Together we’ll live
In your vision
Me
An enthusiast
You
A beautiful liar.
–
© LRS 2011
2:10 am December 19, 2010
Awoken by a telling chime,
I lay surrounded by darkness.
Cold and quiet,
I am not tired.
In rooms bursting with people
I am alone.
Talking to you
Provides relief.
I filled with anger
As you spoke tonight.
I can no longer
Tolerate us.
Rattled and questioned,
My faith stepped in to rescue me.
Suffocated by your love,
I need to breathe again.
Not quite sure where I went,
Lost in a sea of others.
Loving you
Has broken me,
Learning them
Has focused me,
Practicing
Has inspired me.
Never devoid of heartache;
Never enough love.
Linked to characters in a fantasy world;
Disconnected from God.
Smothered by this world,
Desired by its keepers,
My voice
Shall be heard.
Those who tore at me
Will heed
And will grieve
At my ignore.
Brilliant and blackened,
Shadows cool my force.
Thoughts of red
Quickly emerge.
Names flow off your tongue
Like I don’t exist.
I am attacked,
Filled with sorrow.
Consume me
Swallow me
Become me
Free me.
Filtered by your stare
Allowed by your will,
Accept me
Then forget me.
Only the rain can wash this bitterness away.
© LRS 2010
Distance September 18, 2010
Days go by
So long and unfamiliar,
The nights
So lonely.
I walk about
Searching for fulfillment
My soul desires connection.
I crave your love
Acceptance
Attention.
Fears accumulated since birth,
I have worked so attentively to overcome,
Are back, draining life from
Deep within my soul.
Purposely not allowing negative emotions to overcome me
I sit back
Glass in hand
And breathe in, oh so deeply.
My thoughts are inconsistent and overwhelming.
Sweet green, please
Calm my mind.
My passion,
Honest and luring,
Separates us even more.
I step away, just for a moment, to
Let my thoughts run wild.
Joy and happiness brings heartache
And I am confused.
My sentiment is raw and true,
But still new
And unpredictable.
Will closeness cure this
Or must I relish in these feelings,
Allow them to ferment
And accept what they become.
Arrows grip my flesh
My stomach aches with adore
The pure satisfaction is telling.
I long to know you
Hold your hand in mine.
Hear your voice
Speak my words.
I study your face
I am determined to find similarities.
Oh precious man
Walk your path and stumble onto my own,
Look into my eyes and deny me.
Pay my spirit for the years of debt.
Sing a lullaby as I fall asleep.
Mend your ways.
Increase our love.
Tear down this
Distance
And hold me
In your arms,
Forever.
© LRS 2010
Her Story Unread 