Beautiful Liar March 28, 2011

Skilled
At what you do
Years in production
Practice doesn’t make perfect
You are a natural.
Little of your effort
It takes
To master this art.
Not much forethought
Goes into preparation
A true talent
That has become you.

–

Dark eyes
An honest smile
Young and overlooked
Who was your first?
Did they see you?
Were your skills valued?
Perhaps they were
Too self-absorbed
Too ignorant
To cherish your special gift.

–

I realized
Rather quickly
You chose me
To receive your truth
I never had a chance.
To escape your passion
Meant
Turning my back
On myself
Something you knew
I would never do.

–

You held on tight
Called out to me
Knowing I was listening
Waiting for your world
To become
My own.
When you reached
For my hand
There was no going back.
I agreed
To take that trip
With you
Promised
It wasn’t fantasy
I knew the reality.
You undressed me
With your words
You borrowed my spirit
Made all the right plays.
Outside of myself
I watched you
You led the orchestra
Of my heart
Into a symphony
Of cohesive harmonies.

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Accepting this you
Is foolish of me
I know your art
Will always be
Your first love.
A willing victim
Living in your castle
I believe you
Killing myself
One word at a time.
I sacrifice
For the better of you
Someday you’ll see
I gave you strength
It was me
Who empowered you
I’ll take your shame
Discharge your guilt
Onto my shoulders.
Continue to build
Your character of talent
Fine tune your masterpiece
Together we’ll live
In your vision
Me
An enthusiast
You
A beautiful liar.

–

© LRS 2011

Everclear February 4, 2011

Breathe

Deep breaths.

In and out

Just breathe.

I’m left alone

Separated.

Now I can finally breathe.

 –

Slightly sad

I do miss him.

Not the man I now know

Rather, who he was before.

I am happier without him.

I was miserable

Craving more.

 –

I allowed lust to break me.

I lost everything

Hard work gone wasted.

I’ve taken back my heart

I’m in the driver’s seat now.

I learned my lesson

The hard way.

 –

I always struggle

Being drawn to those that use

Abuse

Throw away.

I shouldn’t allow adore to consume me.

The level of sin and despair I was trapped in

Will never again survive me.

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Focusing on

Jesus

Myself

And genuine relationships.

Being cautious with my heart

Without changing who I am.

Thankful I learned this

I am now stronger

Smarter

More in harmony with my spirit.

I eliminated toxic wastes

My purpose is clear.

 –

 –

[You may not believe this

God uses you to reach others.

He used you to reveal me.

God has a master plan

I trust Him.

 –

I’m sure you already know

You’re not that

Smart

Nice

Successful

Loving

Compassionate

Understanding

Sympathetic

Caring

Or attractive.

 –

You are a

Selfish

Rude

Dishonest

Cruel

Ignorant,

Failure.

I am content being ignored

By you.

 –

I no longer want

To attract people like you.

Apparently, my message is being received

Loud and clear.

Accomplish all the fame and fortune

This world has to offer,

You will never be as happy as I

Until you are able

To be honest with yourself

About whom you really are.

 –

You want others to feel about you

All the horrible things

You feel about you.

You make your own worst judgments

Come true.

Call yourself an asshole

Treat others like shit

They will eventually agree with you.

 –

Want compliments?

Change.

It is obvious

You are not ready or capable

To change right now

I have to change.

You’ll be left in the dust

To fend for yourself

You’ll be fine

I did it.]

 –

© LRS 2011