Whispers in the Wind July 11, 2011

Bits and pieces of you float around me

With each blink I attempt to wrap you within my mind

Dancing in the wind, you flirt

Pluck my curls from beneath my ear

Leave sweet kisses atop my lashes

Gently, eagerly; land on my chest

When I reach for you, you weave through my fingertips

One after the other you gather on my cheeks

I press you into my skin; allow my flesh to absorb your energy

Deep in thought you step into my mind

Capture me from those in my presence

Keep me for yourself

Release into me

Together we are home

 

© LRS 2011

 

Catch and Release July 6, 2011

What do I want?
What do I imagine?
Horror plagues your face
As the answers spill
From these troubled lips

So pure?
So righteous?
Allow me to introduce myself
Sick in depth
Beyond repair

A one way ticket to hell
Not sure I want to make the trip back
Another plight into lust
Snatched up without a fight
I practically begged

You wish
To be in my presence
Bathe in my light
Yet, I’m sure
Disappointment is all I’ll cause

Touch with one finger
Then retract into your fantasy
I won’t taste sweet
I won’t smell of love
I’ll sag and sway and disgust you away

Please stop
Turn around
Run deep into her arms
Where you belong
Remember me no more

After all
I am meant for another
One stroke at a time
I free you
From my grip

 

© LRS 2011

 

First Love June 29, 2011

Lost, abandoned by selfish family
She saw him
Thick curls warmed his neck
Brown framed his face
A tall, thin, hardened boy
The pain of seclusion leaked from his heavy eyes

 

When he said I love you
Her heart filled with acceptance
When she felt his puckered lips
Pressed against her natural breasts
She filled with warm, rich pleasure
The sweet sensation of his gentle touch
Deep within
Hurt her courageous bones with joy

 

She didn’t want to part from him
She wouldn’t ever give him the chance to forget her
Stay around
Stay with me
Her heart constricted with pure agony
With each passing city
The distance between their souls
Grew more and more

 

She felt his love slipping right through her wet fingertips
She never intended to leave
She lay there, aloof
Staring at his masculine image
Pretending they were still together
Tormented by fate
A master at running away
She bid adieu
Their love will pullulate forever

 

© LRS 2011

 

Lay With Me June 14, 2011

I knock on the door
“Come in,” I hear said,
I walk into your house
See you laying in bed.

 

“Hi,” I whisper
“Hello,” you return,
“Come here,” you request
Oh how I want, oh how I yearn.

 

Here, I lay in your arms
Allowing your warmth to become my own,
You wink at me, a smile escapes
When I am with you I never feel alone.

 

As I snuggle my face
Deep into your chest,
Your sweetness smothers
Becomes my breath.

 

Feeling this moment
As if it were true,
I close my eyes
Find my self in you.

 

Hold me close
So close, so tight,
Here, laying together
We watch day become night.

 

I must never fall asleep
Or lose the feel of your touch,
For when I wake in the morning
All that remains will be dust.

 

For now I’ll stay here
Laying next to you in bed,
If I can’t have you with me
We’ll be together in my head.

 

© LRS 2011

 

Unworthy April 25, 2011

On a quest

Searching for happiness within,

I have yet to be capable of loving my self.

This morning I awoke dismayed

Never thin enough

Nice enough

Strong enough

Christian enough

Worth enough to be content with me.

Surrounded by worldly possessions and its keepers,

Struggling to stay focused on Christ,

Today I realized I won’t win this battle.

I cried, screamed,

Begged Jesus to take me home

Free me into the heavens,

Fill my heart with infinite peace.

Tired, frustrated, hurt, and broken…

I gave in.

The pain is too deep

Too often and

Too much for me to bear.

I want out, I confessed,

I have no desire to fight any longer.

Nothing in or of this world is worthy,

Certainly neither am I.

–

© LRS 2011

Open-Ended Love Affair April 21, 2011

Not too far off in the distance

A large white smoke billows

Over the length of my body.

A tiring week of events soaks

My clothes in sweat.

His touch, too often forgotten,

Casts shadows in colors missed by the naked eye.

Only under the dark of these shadows

Am I able to express my desires.

Been asleep for many years

Lost, under his spell,

Now awake, feeling all but the present.

I cannot shut my eyes to rest.

Simple, yet uneasy tasks

Crash like waves onto my head

Knocking me down. Swirling under

I am not allowed to come up for air.

One after the other I am pressed down

Deeper and deeper into the earth.

Separated as can possibly be from the heavens,

I am closer to God than ever before.

I let out a loud screech, a call for help,

Hoping others will hear me and seek me,

Rescue me, transform my mind.

Focusing on lines, lines that show definitives,

Age, experience, heritage,

How these lines connect us.

One becomes two, then four, and back to one,

No relation between the previous

Yet all attached to the being,

Which is separate from my soul.

Softening blows, only through acceptance.

Governing peace, through understanding.

Weighing down upon my shoulders, the

Pressure of cohesiveness;

No longer a part of the responsibility I am willing to bear.

I will do my part, only my part.

I will be what is needed, for you,

Only for you, all for you, embracing you.

–

© LRS 2011

A, Cousin of Mine March 17, 2011

Allay and subtle

She writes with certainty.

Dedicated and adoring

She protects her soul,

One step at a time.

She evaluates life

Past experiences

Religious ideals

… herself.

She has yet to discover

The remarkable woman within.

Pleasing to God

Gentle in spirit

Blinding beauty exudes,

One step at a time.

Blessed to know her, am I.

As I read her words

Direct and influential

She unlocks my enthusiasm for Christ.

Grace and dignity

She owns.

Obedience and justice

She adheres to,

One step at a time.

Open to learning

Guided by God

Fear does not seize her.

Silently judged

She desires to break away

A healthy message she delivers,

One step at a time.

Balanced

She walks with the Lord.

Patient

She waits on Him.

Engrossed

She seeks God’s will.

Plagued by the world

Focused on harmony

I see her clothed in calm

Soothing us with her gifts,

One step at a time.

–

© LRS 2011

Never Alone March 3, 2011

Woke up this morning
Sat down to write,
Never intended
To take part in this fight.

–

My heart full of noise
My mind blank,
Nothing to say
Dreaming awake.

–

Void of inspiration
No love story to tell,
Caught off guard
I slipped and fell.

–

Growing in spurts
One day at a time,
Taking care of myself
“Everything will be fine.”

–

Motivated by loved ones
To do my best,
I’ll stand on solid ground
Let God handle the rest.

–

Realizing my potential
With each temptation I resist,
In a moment of weakness
I found all I had missed.

–

Alone? Not now
Never shall I be,
Given another chance
My love won’t be free.

–

Counting the days
Until I feel alive again,
Focused and driven
In the end, I will win.

–

© LRS 2011

Everclear February 4, 2011

Breathe

Deep breaths.

In and out

Just breathe.

I’m left alone

Separated.

Now I can finally breathe.

 –

Slightly sad

I do miss him.

Not the man I now know

Rather, who he was before.

I am happier without him.

I was miserable

Craving more.

 –

I allowed lust to break me.

I lost everything

Hard work gone wasted.

I’ve taken back my heart

I’m in the driver’s seat now.

I learned my lesson

The hard way.

 –

I always struggle

Being drawn to those that use

Abuse

Throw away.

I shouldn’t allow adore to consume me.

The level of sin and despair I was trapped in

Will never again survive me.

 –

Focusing on

Jesus

Myself

And genuine relationships.

Being cautious with my heart

Without changing who I am.

Thankful I learned this

I am now stronger

Smarter

More in harmony with my spirit.

I eliminated toxic wastes

My purpose is clear.

 –

 –

[You may not believe this

God uses you to reach others.

He used you to reveal me.

God has a master plan

I trust Him.

 –

I’m sure you already know

You’re not that

Smart

Nice

Successful

Loving

Compassionate

Understanding

Sympathetic

Caring

Or attractive.

 –

You are a

Selfish

Rude

Dishonest

Cruel

Ignorant,

Failure.

I am content being ignored

By you.

 –

I no longer want

To attract people like you.

Apparently, my message is being received

Loud and clear.

Accomplish all the fame and fortune

This world has to offer,

You will never be as happy as I

Until you are able

To be honest with yourself

About whom you really are.

 –

You want others to feel about you

All the horrible things

You feel about you.

You make your own worst judgments

Come true.

Call yourself an asshole

Treat others like shit

They will eventually agree with you.

 –

Want compliments?

Change.

It is obvious

You are not ready or capable

To change right now

I have to change.

You’ll be left in the dust

To fend for yourself

You’ll be fine

I did it.]

 –

© LRS 2011

Longing January 31, 2011

Blue and green kisses
Lather my flesh
Plump, soft breasts
Smooth against my hands.

 

My tongue ever-so lightly
Flirts with my lips
The red has never been so red
The pleasure, never so rich.

 

Long, white whiskers
Tickle my arm
Passionate thoughts dance
In my head.

 

So in love
So alive with love
I smile
And kiss back.

 

Is this me
Is it real
Is this the life I live
Am I merely telling a story.

 

Not much more can live
Without belief
More, give me more
A lot more.

 

I sigh and gently giggle
The red deepens
Wet and moist
My soft lips are pouted.

 

Wanting
Forever wanting
Pressed by desire
Longing for his touch.

 

© LRS 2007