On a quest
Searching for happiness within,
I have yet to be capable of loving my self.
This morning I awoke dismayed
Never thin enough
Nice enough
Strong enough
Christian enough
Worth enough to be content with me.
Surrounded by worldly possessions and its keepers,
Struggling to stay focused on Christ,
Today I realized I won’t win this battle.
I cried, screamed,
Begged Jesus to take me home
Free me into the heavens,
Fill my heart with infinite peace.
Tired, frustrated, hurt, and broken…
I gave in.
The pain is too deep
Too often and
Too much for me to bear.
I want out, I confessed,
I have no desire to fight any longer.
Nothing in or of this world is worthy,
Certainly neither am I.
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© LRS 2011
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