The Promise August 30, 2012

With all of my heart I want to experience peace, joy, serenity, happiness, gratitude, comfort, kindness, and forgiveness. I fully understand & accept that this can only be accomplished with the help and guidance of my heavenly Father, Christ Jesus my King.

This very moment I empty my heart & mind of worldly ideals and focus on the truth of His holy word. I will be full. I will be whole. I will embrace this gift of change & transition and stop resisting my journey. With loving kindness I move forward into the unknown, releasing fears of the known, and relinquishing false control over my life.

Lord God, I fall at your feet in complete surrender to your total care & protection. I want the joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart!

© LR 2012

For(ward) Ever July 9, 2011

If…
If only…
Then I would be happy.

 

If…
Only if…
I could be someone
Other than me.
So disappointed
In what I’ve become
With the mistakes I’ve made
Disgusted
With the regret I feel.

 

If…
If only…
Then I would be happy.

 

If…
Only if…
I could feel something
Other than heartache.
Tired of hurting
Tired of crying
Tired of my protests
Falling on deaf ears.

 

If…
If only…
Then I would be happy.

 

If…
Only if…
I could be saved
Redeemed for my sins.
I can do this
I must press on
Gather my strength
Forward ever,
Backward never.

 

© LRS 2011

 

God is Love May 4, 2011

Evil doer
You attempted to lead me astray,
You are the liar
You are the denier
A false prophet,
You did not withstand my tests.

 

My fears
Have been driven out
By perfect love,
The one who is in me
Is greater
Than the one who is in the world.

 

Lost
In lawlessness
You remain
In death,
A murderer
Outside of eternal life.

 

I carry with me
The spirit of truth
I am in chains for Christ,
Victory will be mine
Born of God
I will overcome the world.

 

Insist my truth is stupid
Not to worry, boy
I have faith
My ‘stupidity’
Will last for eternity.

 

I am not surprised
That the world
Hates me,
For I have passed
From death
To life.

 

Love me as I loved you
Not with words
Instead,
With actions
And in truth.

 

I didn’t know where I was going
The darkness
Had blinded me,
Not everything of the world
Comes from
The Father.

 

© LRS 2011

 

Unworthy April 25, 2011

On a quest

Searching for happiness within,

I have yet to be capable of loving my self.

This morning I awoke dismayed

Never thin enough

Nice enough

Strong enough

Christian enough

Worth enough to be content with me.

Surrounded by worldly possessions and its keepers,

Struggling to stay focused on Christ,

Today I realized I won’t win this battle.

I cried, screamed,

Begged Jesus to take me home

Free me into the heavens,

Fill my heart with infinite peace.

Tired, frustrated, hurt, and broken…

I gave in.

The pain is too deep

Too often and

Too much for me to bear.

I want out, I confessed,

I have no desire to fight any longer.

Nothing in or of this world is worthy,

Certainly neither am I.

–

© LRS 2011

A, Cousin of Mine March 17, 2011

Allay and subtle

She writes with certainty.

Dedicated and adoring

She protects her soul,

One step at a time.

She evaluates life

Past experiences

Religious ideals

… herself.

She has yet to discover

The remarkable woman within.

Pleasing to God

Gentle in spirit

Blinding beauty exudes,

One step at a time.

Blessed to know her, am I.

As I read her words

Direct and influential

She unlocks my enthusiasm for Christ.

Grace and dignity

She owns.

Obedience and justice

She adheres to,

One step at a time.

Open to learning

Guided by God

Fear does not seize her.

Silently judged

She desires to break away

A healthy message she delivers,

One step at a time.

Balanced

She walks with the Lord.

Patient

She waits on Him.

Engrossed

She seeks God’s will.

Plagued by the world

Focused on harmony

I see her clothed in calm

Soothing us with her gifts,

One step at a time.

–

© LRS 2011